Clarification re: my “vacation” (or when my grandpa passed away)

This will probably be one of the only personal post that I will ever throw up, but I felt that it was necessary since those who knew my Grandpa need to know something regarding a blog post I made a couple months ago.

Around May, my grandpa passed away from a ruptured tumor.  It was messy and ended in the ER.  I was very traumatized by what happened.

The next day, I left California and flew back to NY.  Sometime after I got back, I made a post entitled “Back from my Vacation”.

I did not realize how callous and disrespectful I may have seemed, to call the trip a “vacation”.  It was a way for me to not explain where I was and what I did for the past month.  Essentially I was ‘covering up’ the worst experience in my life by simply telling everyone else that I went on vacation.  That’s it.  I just wanted to clear this up with my relatives and friends.  I hope you can forgive me for being soooo stupid.